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i drink in the silence of the world that surrounds me
me, in my own cocoon of emotions
i wait. i wonder.

the silence that glides like a train in the still night air, stars glimmering down.
thoughts come easy but harder to form into words & feelings
silence that gives my emotions wings to wander & fly.
heart warming memories that bring a smile to my face in my own solitude.

solitude that can shatter as easily as a china doll and yet can reappear just as quickly.
nesting in a house full of thoughts, like a bird returns to its nest of young.

this house is fragile, as though a strong wind might blow it to pieces.
an endless stream of uncharted waters, gliding, drifting.
drifting towards the unknown of tomorrow.
sailing off into the blue requires a strength that i cannot seem to possess.
gladness that returns & sadness that fades.
the bright ocean is glaring & challenges me to sail on.
winds that corrupt even the best sailor's intents.

Beware.
staying the course that was plotted long ago in the safe of the harbor is suddenly futile.
the sailor tries with all his might to steer against the raging storm, & may succeed but for a moment,
only to be cast down by the tormenting waves.

Someone.
someone to guide his ship, save him from this course of disaster & doom.
i am that sailor.
the world a storm that rages out of control & only one may guide my ship safely back to harbor.
my light in the darkness.
light that melts the fears around my heart & restores sunshine through the clouds.
my Strength when I am weak.
my Father. my friend.
my Jesus.